Please tell me that I'm not crazy

[Stacey Roy-Christ]

DEAR WIZERESS, LAST WEEK I HAD THE MOST AWESOME EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. IT FELT SO REAL; UNLIKE ANYTHING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE. I JUST NEED A LITTLE VALIDATION TO ACCEPT WHAT I KNOW TO BE TRUE. I WAS DOING MY CLEAR SPACE, FOCUSING ON MY BREATHS IN THAT WONDERFUL, CALM SPACE WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I WAS (I GUESS THE BEST WORD IS) TRANSPORTED TO AN AREA WHERE EVERYTHING WAS WHITE AND CALM AND THERE WERE PEOPLE ON EITHER SIDE OF ME. THEY HAD NO DISTINCT FEATURES AND WERE NOT INTERACTING WITH ME OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT I WAS WALKING AMONG THEM AND FELT LIKE THEY WERE FORMING A PATH FOR ME TO WALK ALONG. MY MIND FRAME THROUGHOUT THIS WAS SIMPLY "OH, THIS IS INTERESTING" AND I CONTINUED WALKING WITH NO CLEAR DESTINATION OR PRECONCEIVED NOTIONS. UP AHEAD I SAW A VERY BRIGHT LIGHT AND CONTINUED TO WALK, GUIDED BY THE ENTITIES ON BOTH SIDES OF ME, TOWARD THIS LIGHT. AS I CAME UP TO IT, I BECAME SURROUNDED BY THE LIGHT AND THATS WHERE THE UNBELIEVEABLY AMAZING PART COMES IN. I KNEW IN AN INSTANT THAT THIS LIGHT WAS IN FACT MY HUSBAND WHO HAD PASSED AWAY ALMOST 7 YEARS AGO. I DIDN'T SEE HIM STANDING THERE AS IN WHAT WE CONSIDER NORMAL, HUMAN FORM BUT HIS FACE DID FLASH BEFORE ME AND I JUST INSTINCTIVELY KNEW THAT THIS WAS HIM. THE FEELINGS OF LOVE AND THE POWER OF THE EMOTIONS THAT WERE ENVELOPING ME WERE SO INTENSE, I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO PUT THEM INTO WORDS BECAUSE THERE ARE NONE THAT COULD DO IT JUSTICE. I BEGAN HEARING WORDS FROM HIM ALTHOUGH I DID NOT ACTUALLY SEE HIM AS A PERSON. AGAIN, IT WAS MORE THAT I JUST INTUITIVELY KNEW IT WAS HIM. HE BEGAN TO TELL ME; "I'M SO SORRY! I DID NOT UNDERSTAND - I DID NOT KNOW" OUR HISTORY FOR THE 20 YEARS THAT WE WERE TOGETHER WAS THAT HE WAS OFTEN TIMES VERY EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE AND I WAS OFTEN CONFUSED AS TO WHETHER HE DID IN FACT REALLY LOVE ME BECAUSE I COULN'T UNDERSTAND HOW SOMEONE COULD SAY THEY LOVE YOU AND THEN HURT YOU SO BAD. TO HEAR HIM ACKNOWLEDGE THE PAIN HE HAD CAUSED ME AND TO FEEL THE OVERWHELMING LOVE EMINATING FROM HIM WAS SO POWERFUL THAT EVEN THOUGH I DID NOT REALIZE IT AT THE TIME, TEARS WERE STREAMING DOWN MY FACE. I HEARD THE WORDS "I MISS YOU SO MUCH" OVER AND OVER BUT I'M NOT SURE IF THEY WERE COMING FROM ME OR HIM. IN HINDSIGHT I'M ASSUMING THEY WERE MY WORDS SINCE I'M NOT SURE IF THEY ACTUALLY MISS US FROM THE OTHER SIDE. I WISH I COULD HAVE STAYED IN THAT SPACE WITH HIM LONGER FOR AS I SAID IT WAS THE MOST INTENSE FEELING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED BUT UNFORTUNATELY THE PHONE RANG AND AFTER SEVERAL RINGS I WAS ONCE AGAIN JUST SITTING IN MY CHAIR. THATS WHEN I REALIZED MY FACE WAS SOAKED WITH TEARS. I ANSWERED THE PHONE AND TOLD MY DAUGHTER I WOULD BE RIGHT THERE TO PICK HER UP FROM SCHOOL. SHE LATER TOLD ME THAT I SOUNDED VERY STRANGE. I FELT LIGHTHEADED AND EVERYTHING FELT SURREAL FOR A FEW MINUTES. I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT I DID NOT IMAGINE THIS BECAUSE IT WAS MORE "REAL" THAN ANYTHING I'VE EVER FELT. I GUESS I JUST NEED TO HEAR THE VALIDATION FROM SOMEONE ELSE WHO TRULY UNDERSTANDS. I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOUR INPUT.

[Leianne Wilson]

Stacey,
You are sooo NOT CRAZY! Being in this field for as long as I have, I have had a few personal expereinces with those that have crossed over, and done quite a bit of research on the subject. What you describe is similar to many other people's experiences of there passed on loved ones. The calm feeling, the bright light and entities guiding you, the surreal feeling, the knowingness of his presence and message...these are all tell tale signs of your expereince being very real.

I am sure that you now count your blessings at having this experience which has taken seven years to come to you. So many people never get that incredible visitation and are left with their questions and unressolved emotions.

Your expereince is the greatest gift a passed on loved one can give, and it had to have been very important to him to get it to you. I have discovered that it isn't as easy as you might think for one from the other side to bring a loved one to their domain for a conversation. The fact that you were able to maintain a vibration high enough to spend a few minutes in heaven is a testament to your spiritual growth. Congratulations to it all!!!

[Stacey Roy-Christ]

Well, I have an absolutely amazing addition to my story. A few days ago I woke up at about 7:30am to find my present husband gone. Not only was he out of bed but he was already out of the house (very unusual for him since he is retired and likes to sleep in). When I finally got in touch with him, he stated that he had errends to run but followed that up with the fact that something strange had happened to him but he did not want to discuss it.

When he got home I asked him if he would share his strange occurrance with me since we usually share everything. He seemed torn and once again stated that he was having a hard time understanding it and was not ready at this time to share it with me.

Of course my curiosity was now out of control, so that night I tried again. Upon my now third request, my husband looked at me very seriously and said, "I need to know something. Have you recently talked to Tim(my first husband who as you know from my last e-mail has been gone for almost 7 years) or had any type of interaction with him?" This was a strange question coming from him. My present husband (Tom) knew nothing about what I had experienced. I did not tell him about it because he is on the fence about metaphysical occurrances although things have happened over the last few years that he can not rationally explain and I believe he is slowly coming over to the side of enlightenment.

I told him of my meeting with Tim and he said it explained alot. Evidently, in his dream state, Tom found himself on a different plane (much as I had stated). He faced a door and upon opening it, found himself in the presence of Tim. Just as I had stated, he didn't see Tim as in human form but simply knew it was him. Tim informed Tom that he had been in contact with me recently but wanted Tom to understand that he meant no disrespect and was not trying to come between Tom and I. He wanted Tom to know that there was no competition (Tom knows that I still have a great deal of love for Tim and has respectfully accepted this). Tom stated that he is not a jealous man and Tim replied that he in fact is (Tim was very jealous while he was alive) but he is okay with Tom being with me because he sees all the good Tom has brought into my life and the lives of my children. He thanked Tom for taking such good care of his family. Tom went on to describe his experince in words that mirrored my own. He could not fully put into words how "real" the experince felt. He felt like he was out of his body because he said he logicallly knew he was in fact sleeping yet he equally felt that he was standing in the presence of Tim. There was the same "calm" feeling that I had described and the similarity of "knowing" it was Tim without actually seeing him. When Tom awoke there was the same surreal feeling that I had experienced and poor Tom was so "freaked out" by this that he said he just had to get out of the house which explained the early morning errends. There is no way Tom could have simply dreamed this. He knew nothing of my meeting with Tim. Even Tom could not logically explain what had happened. This event not only completely validated my own experience but opened my husband's eyes even more to the existance of life beyond what we can see.

[Leianne Wilson]

Boy, talk about getting an answer to the question you originally posted of "am I crazy?". When something like this takes place it demonstrates how "not crazy" we are. It exemplifies the incredible power of love, and that it defies death. There truly is life and the bonds of love that exist not just in this world but the here after. Thank you so much for sharing this story with an amazing sequel!!!!